Welcome to my blog! I am so excited to share my creation and inner processing with you ❤ Where to start? Firstly, I love to blog 🙂 Topics include my experiences, processing and evolving thoughts on... my miscarriage grief and trying to conceivenarcissistic experiences [daughter of narcissist]histories of sexual violence and witnessing domestic violence and … Continue reading Welcome
Full disclaimer, this has nothing to do with bubbles, and I think the water / undercurrent metaphor is only mentioned a couple of times. I was just hard enough getting this down into sentences, that there was no space left for witty and meaningful titles. But the picture is cute... so that counts right?
I want to write this eloquent and meaningful story of how I was struggling with my new job but that I go through the hero's journey to find some deep inner knowing and conquer it all. But it is week 1, and I have definitely forgotten to schedule in any 'conquering'. Or the deep inner … Continue reading New Job Ramblings
I am feeling so good I just wanted to update everyone on my life's wonderful-ness! Mental Health:- I am looking at changing my mental health care plan; change up the meds and the expectations of myself, and chart a new way forward. Incidentally a huge thanks to this amazing blog for offering hope and education … Continue reading Wonderfulness
I had a counselling session yesterday. It was after a very rough month off. The counsellor mentioned that she thought I was preoccupied with the past. Preoccupied. I mean, I look at all my blog posts, and my obsessions with my family ancestry, my intense enjoyment of historical fiction and documentaries, the high-school and university … Continue reading not sure that it’s a problem
Heya - especially to my long term readers and blog buddies. I only have one kiddo. I have written in the past deliberately misleading that fact. Calling my kiddo my eldest... which she is technically... and specifically using the plurals. I did it because this is an anonymous blog, and I was worried that I … Continue reading A bit of a confession and an apology.
My head has been messy lately. So I think I just want to try and get some of the contradictions and messiness out and expressed. Therapy. I am frustrated that therapy is taking so long AND I am taking a break for a few weeks. I am frustrated that I have 'mental illness'. I want … Continue reading Dichotomies.
Trigger warning: suicide attempt mentioned, also: rape, abuse,
TW: Claremont Serial Killer. Rape. Domestic Violence. Stalking. etc
I don't see god as a wizard type dude that sits on a chair granting and denying wishes or handing out verdicts. No judgement if this is what works for you, great. I know that everyone has their own personal relationship with the divine, and that billions of people find meaning in the term and depiction … Continue reading My perspective of the world via playdough
I have been looking into the stories and magic of my ancestors. Unfortunately I have found that ancestral reverence comes hand in hand with a lot of visceral trauma. No matter who we are, where we are from and how we interact with life, life is inescapably painful. [Note: this is *before* the structures and … Continue reading Unpacking ancestral dichotomies.