Welcome to my blog! I am so excited to share my creation and inner processing with you ❤ Where to start? Firstly, I love to blog 🙂 Topics include my experiences, processing and evolving thoughts on... my miscarriage grief and trying to conceivenarcissistic experiences [daughter of narcissist]histories of sexual violence and witnessing domestic violence and … Continue reading Welcome
I am feeling so good I just wanted to update everyone on my life's wonderful-ness! Mental Health:- I am looking at changing my mental health care plan; change up the meds and the expectations of myself, and chart a new way forward. Incidentally a huge thanks to this amazing blog for offering hope and education … Continue reading Wonderfulness
I had a counselling session yesterday. It was after a very rough month off. The counsellor mentioned that she thought I was preoccupied with the past. Preoccupied. I mean, I look at all my blog posts, and my obsessions with my family ancestry, my intense enjoyment of historical fiction and documentaries, the high-school and university … Continue reading not sure that it’s a problem
Heya - especially to my long term readers and blog buddies. I only have one kiddo. I have written in the past deliberately misleading that fact. Calling my kiddo my eldest... which she is technically... and specifically using the plurals. I did it because this is an anonymous blog, and I was worried that I … Continue reading A bit of a confession and an apology.
My head has been messy lately. So I think I just want to try and get some of the contradictions and messiness out and expressed. Therapy. I am frustrated that therapy is taking so long AND I am taking a break for a few weeks. I am frustrated that I have 'mental illness'. I want … Continue reading Dichotomies.
Trigger warning: suicide attempt mentioned, also: rape, abuse,
TW: Claremont Serial Killer. Rape. Domestic Violence. Stalking. etc
I don't see god as a wizard type dude that sits on a chair granting and denying wishes or handing out verdicts. No judgement if this is what works for you, great. I know that everyone has their own personal relationship with the divine, and that billions of people find meaning in the term and depiction … Continue reading My perspective of the world via playdough
I have been looking into the stories and magic of my ancestors. Unfortunately I have found that ancestral reverence comes hand in hand with a lot of visceral trauma. No matter who we are, where we are from and how we interact with life, life is inescapably painful. [Note: this is *before* the structures and … Continue reading Unpacking ancestral dichotomies.
This is a reminder to myself, and maybe to you too if you've stopped by... My people see me. In my entirety. In my complexity. In my darkness. In a world where society is telling me subliminally and occasionally rather overtly, that I don't belong, or I don't measure up, or I need to fit … Continue reading My People See Me
I wanted to acknowledge the powerful revolution that we are a part of right now. Because we are a part of it. Even if we choose to disengage... perhaps particularly then. I have been on my anti-racism journey for a good few years now, and I still have a lifetime of work to go. However, … Continue reading baby anti-racism steps