Welcome to my blog! I am so excited to share my creation and inner processing with you ❤ Where to start? Firstly, I love to blog 🙂 Topics include my experiences, processing and evolving thoughts on... my miscarriage grief and trying to conceivenarcissistic experiences [daughter of narcissist]histories of sexual violence and witnessing domestic violence and … Continue reading Welcome

Bubbles. And Water. And undercurrents.

Full disclaimer, this has nothing to do with bubbles, and I think the water / undercurrent metaphor is only mentioned a couple of times. I was just hard enough getting this down into sentences, that there was no space left for witty and meaningful titles. But the picture is cute... so that counts right?


I am feeling so good I just wanted to update everyone on my life's wonderful-ness! Mental Health:- I am looking at changing my mental health care plan; change up the meds and the expectations of myself, and chart a new way forward. Incidentally a huge thanks to this amazing blog for offering hope and education … Continue reading Wonderfulness

not sure that it’s a problem

I had a counselling session yesterday. It was after a very rough month off. The counsellor mentioned that she thought I was preoccupied with the past. Preoccupied. I mean, I look at all my blog posts, and my obsessions with my family ancestry, my intense enjoyment of historical fiction and documentaries, the high-school and university … Continue reading not sure that it’s a problem

My perspective of the world via playdough

I don't see god as a wizard type dude that sits on a chair granting and denying wishes or handing out verdicts. No judgement if this is what works for you, great. I know that everyone has their own personal relationship with the divine, and that billions of people find meaning in the term and depiction … Continue reading My perspective of the world via playdough

Unpacking ancestral dichotomies.

I have been looking into the stories and magic of my ancestors. Unfortunately I have found that ancestral reverence comes hand in hand with a lot of visceral trauma. No matter who we are, where we are from and how we interact with life, life is inescapably painful. [Note: this is *before* the structures and … Continue reading Unpacking ancestral dichotomies.