I want to know how to play with my not-toy-oriented dog. I want to know what Trump feels when he sees his grandchild. I want to know what is actually the best diet, and how the fuck I'm supposed to incorporate it into my life. I want to know why vaccines are thought to be … Continue reading Things I want to know.
I don't want to accept that your inner child was breaking down today. Because I'm not okay with your behaviour. --> Plus I still have epic anger and resentment at you leaving me with NM whilst you fucked off out of there... But sure, let's play happy families.
I need to repeat that to myself. Again. It was child abuse. I am rereading forums, blogs, quotes and other text about narcissistic mothers. Like trying to remind myself of this journey that I have already been on. To reveal these truths I have already uncovered. I remember asking my birth-mother what her favourite age … Continue reading It was child abuse.
I cannot comprehend the devastation and desperation (firstly - that the whole world must be feeling... but secondly) that my own family is feeling. I found out that my gorgeous niece, my perfect, happy, courageous, so-god-damn-sure, divine little niece is in hospital being blasted with radiation. Daughter of my cousin. Niece, culturally. It's all happened SO … Continue reading Sometimes life is for watching…
For no particular reason my heart is pounding somewhere between a thousand butterflies and a thousand war drums beating. My stomach is somewhere between tingly and full on rollercoaster rides. And for no real reason. Baby stuff just comes up, and takes over. But Baby isn't any closer. Well, maybe in the sense that time passing means that … Continue reading Just give me the baby already!!
I look down at my punk-ed out fingernails as I scroll through my blog posts thus far. I'm really proud of this journey. Of where I've been already, where I am right now, and even where I might be going. I am not worried that I swear a lot. Nor am I worried that there … Continue reading a reflection of the journey thus far.