"So what's going on?" You innocently ask with an effortless smile. Pregnancies, and miscarriages, and periods, and two-week-wait-periods. This is what I really want to tell you about. This world that I didn't know existed. A world of secret hoping, secret wishing, secret tracking, and most tragically, secret grieving. I want to tell you about … Continue reading Coffee Shop Catch Up
I *LOVE* coincidences and weird mind bending stories. I love reading books about angels and visitations and dead-people-messages. I love hearing about miracles. I love them because I don't believe in coincidences, so for me, they are just little snippets of wonder fluttering around in the ether. I *LOVE* that I have two incredibly special … Continue reading Things that I love
For every step forward I have had on this entire journey, there seems to be an equal and opposite avalanche backwards. Avalanche. Backwards. That's what I'm battling here!
So since the spreading of my Nanna's ashes, funerals, coffins, and death came up in a big way. I've always been a bit interested in death. And decently obsessed with my own. Not in a weird way. You know, the other not-weird way hahahaha Funerals fascinate me. Coffins perplex me! How can someone even fit into … Continue reading The inaptitude of coffins.
Baby was due today. Today was the day that I was supposed to be birthing a baby. Or be very close to it. Or have only just done it. Today. Today is also Wolf Woman's birthday. That's two deaths to commemorate, on one day. My biggest two deaths, in one day. And I feel like … Continue reading Due date. Without the baby.