Precious bubba, precious sleep.

I am rebelling against the system. Rebelling against all the voices in my head that have come from countless friends and strangers and good intentions. Voices that tell me my baby should sleep for longer, and more often and most of all alone. Today I tried. Because I wanted to. Because to-do lists are increasing and … Continue reading Precious bubba, precious sleep.

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trains and postpartum anxiety/depression

I was leaving a lovely and refreshing catchup with an old colleague. And I cried. I was leaving the child health nurse appointment. And I cried. I was leaving brunch and hangout with my best friend. And I cried. It doesn't matter if I am catching up with my favourites, or admiring others admire my … Continue reading trains and postpartum anxiety/depression

what if I am the narcissist?

I have spent so much of my time trying to understand and unpack narcissism, and its permutations, patterns and presentations. I have explored its impact and the residual conditioning it has left behind. I have distanced myself from that narcissist, and do everything in my power to disengage from any and all other narcissists. But what … Continue reading what if I am the narcissist?

White Privilege and Early Parenting: Part 2 – Privilege

The two main things I want to do here is to firstly acknowledge my white privilege and how that has and is assisting in my parenting endeavours - see here. Secondly, I found a parallel between my early parenting attitudes and attitudes I see when white privilege is raised, which is this article. This was … Continue reading White Privilege and Early Parenting: Part 2 – Privilege

White Privilege and Early Parenting: Part 1 – 8 Ways my White Privilege served me in pregnancy and early parenting

The two main things I want to do here is to firstly acknowledge my white privilege and how that has and is assisting in my parenting endeavours - which is this article. Secondly, I found a parallel between my early parenting attitudes and attitudes I see when white privilege is raised (find here). Before I … Continue reading White Privilege and Early Parenting: Part 1 – 8 Ways my White Privilege served me in pregnancy and early parenting

Breastfeeding sucks

Or mostly my attachment to things that aren't happening sucks. ~~Part of my breast-feeding story~~ Breastfeeding is SO hard. And the hardest thing is that I want to do it. Little Miss hated breastfeeding for the first few days - if not first few weeks. I imagine that she wasn't impressed about having to work … Continue reading Breastfeeding sucks

Birth: Idealised verses Reality

There has been a lot of processing since writing this, and I am very fortunate to say that right now, I have a slightly wider perspective. However this oscillation between the idealised and reality was and still is a massive thing, so I wanted to share.  Labour was absolutely brutal. For a portion of it, I hated it. … Continue reading Birth: Idealised verses Reality