I have spent so much of my time trying to understand and unpack narcissism, and its permutations, patterns and presentations. I have explored its impact and the residual conditioning it has left behind. I have distanced myself from that narcissist, and do everything in my power to disengage from any and all other narcissists. But what … Continue reading what if I am the narcissist?
*trying to write this a second time - because the words aren't coming out properly* My brother is getting married. Which is delightful. He has been with his girlfriend for probably almost 8 or 9 years now. They have always been together, and whenever I see them, it's together. She reminds me of a female … Continue reading Could you be just as disappointed in… you know… my abuser?!
So someone I love dearly, has suggested that my birth mother* was/is bipolar rather than narcissistic. *'birth mother' is used here, uncapitalised, despite her being the only parent I knew of until adult life. She birthed me, and raised me. Birth mother puts distance into that, there is less socially constructed guilt around not having … Continue reading Bipolar, Narcissism and a birth mother.
So I'm at a place in my world where my family is going to court against a psychopath. I am having to place all of my hope and trust in a system that is designed to see the light and goodness and hope in people... when in all seriousness, there isn't a huge amount of that … Continue reading Psychopath and the legal system.
I know you wanted us to save you. You wanted us to stand there and say NO. You wanted us there when he hurt you. Repeatedly. You wanted truth. Or trust. Or anything else. When he is trying to kill you. Believe me, we wanted to save you. But you and I both know … Continue reading The Psychopath I Couldn’t Save You From