I was leaving a lovely and refreshing catchup with an old colleague. And I cried. I was leaving the child health nurse appointment. And I cried. I was leaving brunch and hangout with my best friend. And I cried. It doesn't matter if I am catching up with my favourites, or admiring others admire my … Continue reading trains and postpartum anxiety/depression
Or mostly my attachment to things that aren't happening sucks. ~~Part of my breast-feeding story~~ Breastfeeding is SO hard. And the hardest thing is that I want to do it. Little Miss hated breastfeeding for the first few days - if not first few weeks. I imagine that she wasn't impressed about having to work … Continue reading Breastfeeding sucks
There has been a lot of processing since writing this, and I am very fortunate to say that right now, I have a slightly wider perspective. However this oscillation between the idealised and reality was and still is a massive thing, so I wanted to share. Labour was absolutely brutal. For a portion of it, I hated it. … Continue reading Birth: Idealised verses Reality
TW: sexual abuse/trauma. Pregnancy is incredibly intense. At the best of times. Even with lots of love and support. Pregnancy can also be incredibly triggering. Here are some ways that I have found this pregnancy to be re-triggering, and some ideas about where to go from here. The Powerlessness of the Medical Industry The … Continue reading Present Pregnancy; Past Trauma.
This blows my mind. I have been very closed with pretty much everything related to my pregnancy; symptoms, experiences, feelings, plans... all of it. And I think it was an un/conscious form of self protection. I didn't need the barrage of competing and contradictory "must-know" tidbits that would "certainly" impede my life or my child's. … Continue reading Can you stop chastising my unborn child?!
Bitchface (ongoing enemy/family member/mostly enemy) has posted all over her social media about reaching out and it being okay to not be okay, and the importance of mental health and all of that. With some beautiful insta-worthy quotes on gorgeous sunset backgrounds. She is commemorating RU OK day. RU OK is an admiral campaign aimed … Continue reading Trying to unpack my tumultuous relationship with Bitchface.
My question of the day is - at what point does spiritual and personal responsibility interplay? At what point is spiritual perception just a highjack of personal responsibility? And at what point is personal responsibility a highjack of spiritual perception? This is a *processing life* post. You are welcome to join me as I try … Continue reading Personal verse spiritual responsibility and perceptions. An interplay or cop-out?