TW: sexual abuse/trauma. Pregnancy is incredibly intense. At the best of times. Even with lots of love and support. Pregnancy can also be incredibly triggering. Here are some ways that I have found this pregnancy to be re-triggering, and some ideas about where to go from here. The Powerlessness of the Medical Industry The … Continue reading Present Pregnancy; Past Trauma.
This blows my mind. I have been very closed with pretty much everything related to my pregnancy; symptoms, experiences, feelings, plans... all of it. And I think it was an un/conscious form of self protection. I didn't need the barrage of competing and contradictory "must-know" tidbits that would "certainly" impede my life or my child's. … Continue reading Can you stop chastising my unborn child?!
Bitchface (ongoing enemy/family member/mostly enemy) has posted all over her social media about reaching out and it being okay to not be okay, and the importance of mental health and all of that. With some beautiful insta-worthy quotes on gorgeous sunset backgrounds. She is commemorating RU OK day. RU OK is an admiral campaign aimed … Continue reading Trying to unpack my tumultuous relationship with Bitchface.
My question of the day is - at what point does spiritual and personal responsibility interplay? At what point is spiritual perception just a highjack of personal responsibility? And at what point is personal responsibility a highjack of spiritual perception? This is a *processing life* post. You are welcome to join me as I try … Continue reading Personal verse spiritual responsibility and perceptions. An interplay or cop-out?
The background to this is so much mush. Part of it is from the latest round of family 'pregnancy reveals' and the subsequent requests/comments/etc. And the other part of it was when I read a forum about women not revealing their pregnancy till late, very late, and not at all - during the internal incubation … Continue reading No, you are not entitled to my unborn child.
*trying to write this a second time - because the words aren't coming out properly* My brother is getting married. Which is delightful. He has been with his girlfriend for probably almost 8 or 9 years now. They have always been together, and whenever I see them, it's together. She reminds me of a female … Continue reading Could you be just as disappointed in… you know… my abuser?!
I feel this massive, irrational and unexplainably urgent urge to complete change the whole system. I get frustrated when I haven't accomplished... like... world peace... by 4pm on a Sunday. Like, I don't think the world is working how it is. I think there is SO much pain. And so much devastation. I imagine it as if the … Continue reading Sunday thoughts, and saving the world