My niece (cousin), my gorgeous, innocent, angelic, 9 year old niece, is taking her lastbreaths. And it is that once in a life time thing that you wish you never experience. You hope you never understand this. Because this is paradigm shifting. In what world is it fair, or even just ok for a lively, … Continue reading My baby, and your baby’s funeral.
So since the spreading of my Nanna's ashes, funerals, coffins, and death came up in a big way. I've always been a bit interested in death. And decently obsessed with my own. Not in a weird way. You know, the other not-weird way hahahaha Funerals fascinate me. Coffins perplex me! How can someone even fit into … Continue reading The inaptitude of coffins.
I don't know what it was that I was thinking about when I realised that I needed to talk to you about it. Before I re-remembered all-over-again, that you are gone. Almost two and a half years ago, gone.
I have this voodoo thingy where I don't talk about good stuff that is happening until after they've come to fruition... It's totally a reference to nm and such conditioning... but maybe it's time to step through that discomfort. So here goes. TTC I am totally trying - trying... like full hard out Trying-To-Conceive. After a … Continue reading Spirits and Books and books-about-spirits.
I don't want to accept that your inner child was breaking down today. Because I'm not okay with your behaviour. --> Plus I still have epic anger and resentment at you leaving me with NM whilst you fucked off out of there... But sure, let's play happy families.
I know you wanted us to save you. You wanted us to stand there and say NO. You wanted us there when he hurt you. Repeatedly. You wanted truth. Or trust. Or anything else. When he is trying to kill you. Believe me, we wanted to save you. But you and I both know … Continue reading The Psychopath I Couldn’t Save You From