My baby, and your baby’s funeral. 

My niece (cousin), my gorgeous, innocent, angelic, 9 year old niece, is taking her last​breaths. And it is that once in a life time thing that you wish you never experience. You hope you never understand this. Because this is paradigm shifting. In what world is it fair, or even just ok for a lively, … Continue reading My baby, and your baby’s funeral. 

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I see you friend, and the illuminating light you have inside.

And I see how you begin - starting out at this incredibly painful, ridiculously scary and incredibly overwhelming experience. This thing that no-one has told you about. This thing that clearly wasn't on the agenda or prospective life plan. This thing that was purposefully left off the life agenda. This thing.

 just a dream …

I feel weird stabbing pain just at writing that title. Just a dream... That's what it is starting to feel like. Or actually that's what the sudden realisation that I just had - is about. *Cue eye leakage* I don't remember what it was like to be pregnant anymore. I don't remember the thoughts about … Continue reading  just a dream …

Sometimes life is for watching…

I cannot comprehend the devastation and desperation (firstly - that the whole world must be feeling... but secondly) that my own family is feeling. I found out that my gorgeous niece, my perfect, happy, courageous, so-god-damn-sure, divine little niece is in hospital being blasted with radiation. Daughter of my cousin. Niece, culturally. It's all happened SO … Continue reading Sometimes life is for watching…